Another stupid sleepless night..

This situation has been haunting me for the past few months. I could not sleep well. I have a lot of dreams, no matter it is good one or nightmare. And, I will be shocked and wake up at either 3.30am or 5.30 am. Obviously, from the time of blog post, I wake up at 5.30am again.

I am getting weaker and weaker... I can't think during day time, I can't rest well during night time. The only remedy so far is only when I am very tired... and sleep at my hometown.. Then I can sleep soundly and try to recover back my energy as much as possible..

Some ppl pointed out my worries about someone as the cause of my sleepless night and I denied. Some ppl pointed out my stress on work or studies and I denied too. The reason is I dont want to let them know too much.. Actually I know what is haunting me.... And even though yesterday we've sorted it out 2gether, the decision isn't what I want.

So tonight the nightmare has finally changed scene. It is the same situation I experienced yesterday morning.... and it is keep repeating like u are playing a video in a loop. So, in my dream, I decided to wake up and I did.

In this quiet night (5.30am SHD BE MORNING!!!), I am writing this blog while the song in my blog is accompanying me. I feel helpless to my nightmare and the lack of sleep.. to be exact.. I woke up @ 2.50am and 5.30am...

I miss someone. and I dont know until when only I can sleep soundly as a normal person. Sometimes I hope that let me leave here forever and I wont need to keep having nightmare and cannot sleep well.. I am very tired..... really very tired .... tired of my daily activities.... tired of my life.......